It’s been 5 weeks since my goodbye-for-now post. A post about taking a break from social media until May 2021. And I’m pretty sure it ended with “You can catch me on the blog until then!” Jokes on me. Should have known pulling back from social media would leave little chance for me to show up here, a place where I already had a hard time landing. Why is that??
But here we are! I miss writing. And sharing. And documenting. It might be hard for me to admit some days, but I do.
So how’s the break been?
Well I’ve already learned quite a bit about my habits. Hi, I’m addicted to my phone. And I’ve been reading. A lot. You could say I’ve replaced my dopamine hits from social media with emails from the library saying my holds are ready for curbside pick up. There could be worse trade-offs, right?
Early bedtimes are now a regular occurrence. I have no idea what is going on in the world of politics and I’m very cool with that. My smartphone instantly became lighter when I deleted Instagram and Facebook– both in the literal and figurative sense. Why do I have a smartphone, now?
And dishes and laundry actually get done on the daily.
Did I suddenly become a more patient and present mom? Nah. But I see more clearly how reactive instead of responsive I am, and possible reasons why.
Do I respond better to texts? Ehhhhh. Still working on it. But on the whole, I don’t have my phone on me nearly as much, so there’s that.
Three Surprising Realizations
- I feel closer to Mike than ever before. Sure, having number 4’s arrival any day now might have something to do with that. But we talk more at night. And about more meaningful things.
2. 8:30/9:00 bedtimes are a more regular occurrence.
3. I am incapable of handling boredom. Here I was all concerned about my kids being exposed to boredom, but totally oblivious to the fact that I myself can’t handle it. Even in those 30-seconds of sitting on the couch in-between snack requests and I’m-done-going-peepee moments. My mediation-loving self doesn’t know how to just be without mindlessly scrolling.
And indirectly, I watch way less Netflix now. Again, because of the boredom factor. Have you ever paid attention to how many times you pick up your phone when you start getting slightly uninterested in a show? Well I hadn’t prior, but I now know the answer is many times and is what kept me saying Yes to “Are you still watching?”
It’s been an experience. Some moments I’m glad I’m doing this. Some moments logging back on is all I can think about. But it’s been a deep dive into self-awareness. And overall I’m so glad I’m doing this.
Looking for your own social media break inspiration? Check out The Social Dilemma and Essentialism. They were both catalysts for me and might give you that little boost you are looking for. Or point you in the direction of something that speaks to you.